I don’t write about adoption much but in honor of National Adoption Month I thought it was appropriate.
Earlier this week our kid said to his father, my husband: “Hi, nice Daddy!”
Thankfully “Daddy” patiently ignored him.
“Hey, nice Daddy!” he said a little too loudly
“I know what you are doing, Okay” I said.
I had just vetoed a kooky idea of his involving ice cream before dinner or battling robots in the tub. It’s hard to keep up with all the ideas.
“No one talks to you” he said with a finger wave in front of my face. “No one” he added with a satisfied smirk.
I don’t like finger waving and smirking is redundant as far as I am concerned. As annoying as it can be it is typical behavior exhibited by a multitude of children trying to get what they want by marginalizing one of their parents.
Sometimes though it isn’t typical. We adopted our son almost five years ago but he moved in as a foster child a year before that. He immediately called my husband: Mommy
I was an inarticulated: “Ba”. As in: “No, no, no, no Ba!”
Our mailman was called “Mommy” about eighteen months before I was.
Of course I asked if he would call me Mommy. As did my husband for a couple reasons: to support me and he wanted to be called “Daddy”. Still no matter how many times we asked he would not call me “Mommy.”
I was gratified by the stories of other mothers who would tell me about how “Daddies rule and mommies drool”. I have heard on more than one occasion that no matter how much mothers do daddies are the real deal. But, I knew this was different for our son. I stopped asking him to because it seemed more important to him not to call me ‘mommy’ than it was for me to hear it. I wondered if it had something to do with ‘mothers’. I was his third.
The reality was our son had a harder time bonding with me than my husband. This didn’t interfere with how I bonded with him though. His first morning with us it hit me. I’m someone’s mother. I have an awesome responsibility. Not awesome like totally cool but as it was originally intended: reverent, fearful wonder. As the tears flowed, I pictured throwing myself in front of the proverbial bullet, car or bear.
I reminded myself of a story from our adoption classes. One of the trainers shared that every year for twelve years one of her adopted daughters signed her birthday card to her the same way: Happy Birthday Mrs. Clifford.
I thought that was a funny story then and I still find it funny now. Perspective is everything as a parent and as a human in general.
I had a couple people tell me to not let him get away with it. I wondered “What is he getting away with exactly?” Processing a troubled life at two-years-old? Several others said he was doing it to bother me. No shit.
Our son has asthma. He used to have frighteningly, terrifyingly horrible asthma. Four years ago he had a massive attack in the middle of the night. He was banging his head and clawing at his throat. My husband went into denial mode convinced it wasn’t that bad. I took charge. I called an ambulance. My husband and I sat on the front steps frantic with our child who was gasping for air. My only thought: “Please don’t let him die.”
The next morning the three of us woke up squished together in a hospital bed. My son turned to me. He put both hands on either side of my face and said: Mommy.
I had finally proved my mettle. I had finally earned the privilege of being called ‘mommy’. There are many things my child is, a push over isn’t one of them.
I have had more than one person say to me: I could never adopt. I just know I couldn’t love a child who wasn’t mine.
Sadly, some people put limits on their capacity to love. Thank goodness that isn’t true of our son.
reprinted: The Good Men Project, Yahoo Parenting via The Good Men Project, Huffington Post
OMG, Kari — will you by my mommy? xoxo
It’s the kid.
Such a beautiful post! You are all very lucky. And this shows, once again, what a whip-smart kid you have there. xo
Right! I don’t like a push over. he makes me work for it:)
Crying now. Great post, great mom, great dad and great kid!
Right back at ya, Bro. You guys were there before us.
I ADORE this! It’s such an incredible story. So beautiful in so many different ways. And yes, I’ve always referred to my kids’ dad as “the party parent.” Sigh. I would love for you to write another piece for BLOOM. Pretty please????
Thank you:) Do you want this one?
and yes of course another piece. Very complimented here.